fevereiro 29, 2004
pigeons have made it to the top five most disqusting things on the plant. they are totally vile creatures with no reason. rats with wings. they irritate me with their existence. thats my sunday morning rant out of the way.
fevereiro 26, 2004
so much running through the head, that i don't have the words to fill this space.
going to one of my fav bars tonight.
currently in a week of 24-7.
realizing a lot about forgiveness....
...uh, just got pleasantly distracted with john mayer videos. ooh.
going to one of my fav bars tonight.
currently in a week of 24-7.
realizing a lot about forgiveness....
...uh, just got pleasantly distracted with john mayer videos. ooh.
fevereiro 20, 2004
still like the hair...it hasn't turned pink so thats always a bonus.
came home from spanish class the other night to discover that the lock on my front door was bust. i was locked out and really needed the bathroom. after a short think on the front step and drop-calling about a hundred people, i wandered through moss side to the main road house for the night. figured i would deal with the locksmith dude in the morning.
you never know what will happen when you decide to wander around....on this particular occassion i was stopped by a young man. he had a 'wonderful' story to tell me about his ear. and then asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend. slightly confused at this stage i politely declined, but said thanks and went on my way. maybe if his pickup line hadn't been in the ear genre i would have said yes...and be on a...very bizaare...date right now. i think i'll count my losses on this one with a sigh of relief.
anyway, it was at main road that i found this amazing book called 'the alchemist'. here's a quote that made me pause:
"making a decision was only the beginning of things. when someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places that he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision."
i like that.
came home from spanish class the other night to discover that the lock on my front door was bust. i was locked out and really needed the bathroom. after a short think on the front step and drop-calling about a hundred people, i wandered through moss side to the main road house for the night. figured i would deal with the locksmith dude in the morning.
you never know what will happen when you decide to wander around....on this particular occassion i was stopped by a young man. he had a 'wonderful' story to tell me about his ear. and then asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend. slightly confused at this stage i politely declined, but said thanks and went on my way. maybe if his pickup line hadn't been in the ear genre i would have said yes...and be on a...very bizaare...date right now. i think i'll count my losses on this one with a sigh of relief.
anyway, it was at main road that i found this amazing book called 'the alchemist'. here's a quote that made me pause:
"making a decision was only the beginning of things. when someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places that he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision."
i like that.
fevereiro 18, 2004
fevereiro 15, 2004
the week in reveiw. in general....good. started spanish course. hola.
went to nottingham...set up a prayer room.... creativity improving. have ventured into the stencils and spray paint. likin it a lot.
cleaned the entire bar. hung out with lynne and work mates.
mom and muggs are coming to visit in 3 weeks...better start cleaning now.
dyed my hair bright ruby red. helen looked at it and said, 'i had a dream 18 months ago that you dyed your hair that colour.' is there really such a thing as free will? or does god plant these ideas in our heads, tell others about it through dreams, and then just allow us to think we're making our own choices? hmmm... probably not, but sometimes i wonder.
went to nottingham...set up a prayer room.... creativity improving. have ventured into the stencils and spray paint. likin it a lot.
cleaned the entire bar. hung out with lynne and work mates.
mom and muggs are coming to visit in 3 weeks...better start cleaning now.
dyed my hair bright ruby red. helen looked at it and said, 'i had a dream 18 months ago that you dyed your hair that colour.' is there really such a thing as free will? or does god plant these ideas in our heads, tell others about it through dreams, and then just allow us to think we're making our own choices? hmmm... probably not, but sometimes i wonder.
fevereiro 10, 2004
started my spanish course last night! lovin it.
reading this book called 'fast food nation'. whoa. don't think i'll ever eat at mcdonalds again. didn't really want to anyway. it's not whats in the food that is bothering me at the moment, but the chain aspect of it all. it's so hard to find a restaurant or coffee house or retail store or pretty much anything these days unless it's a chain. this has totally stiffled our individuality and creativity. it doesn't allow us to express our uniqueness but instead makes us a slave to someone else's ideas. our whole society is manipulated by these huge money hungry corporations. they spend a lot of time figuring out how we work and then exploit it for their own purposes....generally 2 or 3 big wigs at the top who don't give a stuff about people, but just want more money and power. the web goes deep. and the deeper it goes the more unethical it seems to become. and we just allow it to happen, by falling prey to their schemes. buying the burger that is made by machines or grubby little hands. we just make them richer, and society more plastic and fake. this makes society look so cheap. we consume like animals! gross. bring on the unique, creative, independently run and operated, ethical shops and stores where people acutally care about what they are selling to society and know where it's coming from!!
reading this book called 'fast food nation'. whoa. don't think i'll ever eat at mcdonalds again. didn't really want to anyway. it's not whats in the food that is bothering me at the moment, but the chain aspect of it all. it's so hard to find a restaurant or coffee house or retail store or pretty much anything these days unless it's a chain. this has totally stiffled our individuality and creativity. it doesn't allow us to express our uniqueness but instead makes us a slave to someone else's ideas. our whole society is manipulated by these huge money hungry corporations. they spend a lot of time figuring out how we work and then exploit it for their own purposes....generally 2 or 3 big wigs at the top who don't give a stuff about people, but just want more money and power. the web goes deep. and the deeper it goes the more unethical it seems to become. and we just allow it to happen, by falling prey to their schemes. buying the burger that is made by machines or grubby little hands. we just make them richer, and society more plastic and fake. this makes society look so cheap. we consume like animals! gross. bring on the unique, creative, independently run and operated, ethical shops and stores where people acutally care about what they are selling to society and know where it's coming from!!
fevereiro 08, 2004
poser
yesterday was fun. found a new fun spanish cafe called dimitri's...it's right beside my spanish school. i start on monday and i'm very excited. haven't been in a class type setting in so long!
i'm on a mission to visit cafes and bars that i haven't been to before...went to the temple the other night. a really small grubby bar under the street. one of my new favourite places...definite pick of the week.
hung out with cate all day today. had been too long. she is studying photography and for her project on 'shape, form and texture' she asked me to be her model. very fun. i got to pose all afternoon and get my body photographed.
saw 'school of rock'. funny, man! so dumb!
i'm on a mission to visit cafes and bars that i haven't been to before...went to the temple the other night. a really small grubby bar under the street. one of my new favourite places...definite pick of the week.
hung out with cate all day today. had been too long. she is studying photography and for her project on 'shape, form and texture' she asked me to be her model. very fun. i got to pose all afternoon and get my body photographed.
saw 'school of rock'. funny, man! so dumb!
fevereiro 06, 2004
yeah ok...that was all a bit heavy. true...but heavy. i am hungry for tacos.
i'm bored with the way my blog looks. it needs pizzazz. hmmm...
walked out of the house the other night on my way to the corner shop. as soon as i got outside i sensed that something wasn't right or safe. weird. so i started praying that i wouldn't get mugged. not five minutes later these 2 guys walked past me and mugged the man right behind me. they beat him to the ground kicking and punching him, trying to take his briefcase. he was screaming at them and would not let go. there were loads of people walking around, these guys didn't care. i didn't know what to do. it makes me angry. could i have done someting to stop the situation? probably not. it makes you feel useless. this sort of thing happens everyday around here, but then when you see it your senses are shocked into the reality of it all.
i'm bored with the way my blog looks. it needs pizzazz. hmmm...
walked out of the house the other night on my way to the corner shop. as soon as i got outside i sensed that something wasn't right or safe. weird. so i started praying that i wouldn't get mugged. not five minutes later these 2 guys walked past me and mugged the man right behind me. they beat him to the ground kicking and punching him, trying to take his briefcase. he was screaming at them and would not let go. there were loads of people walking around, these guys didn't care. i didn't know what to do. it makes me angry. could i have done someting to stop the situation? probably not. it makes you feel useless. this sort of thing happens everyday around here, but then when you see it your senses are shocked into the reality of it all.
fevereiro 05, 2004
a choice
i am learning something about love that i will take with me the rest of my life. i will not forget, nor will i be the same. my following thoughts are the product of my journey over the past year. this is what i see.... the world looks at love as something dispensible. if it hurts us or we get nothing back from it we can simply walk away. we put up walls, and boundries and protect ourselves at all costs. our actions, words and anger speak of our pain. it's a feeling we're after....searching for whatever or whomever we can find to give us what we want.
we wander the earth looking for intimacy when it is within our grasp. we walk the streets carrying wounds, hurt and pain from loss of love, and lack of intimacy. all of creation cries out for love. that is all we were created for. to love and be loved.
what i'm learning is that it is a choice to love. it's a choice to push through and love when it hurts us. when we get nothing back, when the walls look so inviting and walking away is so much easier. we talk of being radical and changing the world? it's been done...jesus. the ultimate love, the ultimate lover. he died for us and the world turned it's back. he doesn't walk away, he doesn't move...he just loves, with a purity and a power that goes beyond anything i have ever seen or understood. that was the single most radical act of all time. how can we act any differently then...
he is calling us back to himself. the time is now. we must throw off everything else and set our eyes on him. unwavering. faces like flint. the world wants nothing else. we must love. only him. and suddenly loving those around us, those which are so hard to love..become easier.
it is no wonder that it is now when mel gibson's "passion" is revealed to the world. with every pounding of the nail i feel his love...and i know that i have no greater calling...but to love him. to push on. he is so beautiful how can i turn my eyes from him?
"i need you like the rain
come to me and sing again
i long for your love so much
i've wanted your pure touch
you are beautiful
so beautiful
i need you to be here
come to me i can feel you near
i love you, you are my hope
you love me as your own
you are beautiful
so beautiful"
-s.l.
we wander the earth looking for intimacy when it is within our grasp. we walk the streets carrying wounds, hurt and pain from loss of love, and lack of intimacy. all of creation cries out for love. that is all we were created for. to love and be loved.
what i'm learning is that it is a choice to love. it's a choice to push through and love when it hurts us. when we get nothing back, when the walls look so inviting and walking away is so much easier. we talk of being radical and changing the world? it's been done...jesus. the ultimate love, the ultimate lover. he died for us and the world turned it's back. he doesn't walk away, he doesn't move...he just loves, with a purity and a power that goes beyond anything i have ever seen or understood. that was the single most radical act of all time. how can we act any differently then...
he is calling us back to himself. the time is now. we must throw off everything else and set our eyes on him. unwavering. faces like flint. the world wants nothing else. we must love. only him. and suddenly loving those around us, those which are so hard to love..become easier.
it is no wonder that it is now when mel gibson's "passion" is revealed to the world. with every pounding of the nail i feel his love...and i know that i have no greater calling...but to love him. to push on. he is so beautiful how can i turn my eyes from him?
"i need you like the rain
come to me and sing again
i long for your love so much
i've wanted your pure touch
you are beautiful
so beautiful
i need you to be here
come to me i can feel you near
i love you, you are my hope
you love me as your own
you are beautiful
so beautiful"
-s.l.
fevereiro 02, 2004
i have a cold. mboo.
it's eid tonight (muslim holiday of some sort)...which means police everywhere, general mayhem, and a real uneasy,anxious spirit in the air. the police have blocked off all of the roads in rusholme (where i live)and moss side area to try and control things a bit. pretty crazy.
check out the new pictures i've added to my photo album....
my new favourite song today is 'beautiful' by some dude down in st.albans or something. can't get enough...they sang it at the uk gathering last week. ooo...
been sitting in cafes reading with friends recently. this evening it was in 'big hands' with anna reading 'life of pi' and lovin it more and more with each page.
looks like i might be moving to vancouver in july...still working that one through. reasons for this move....thats for another post.
it's eid tonight (muslim holiday of some sort)...which means police everywhere, general mayhem, and a real uneasy,anxious spirit in the air. the police have blocked off all of the roads in rusholme (where i live)and moss side area to try and control things a bit. pretty crazy.
check out the new pictures i've added to my photo album....
my new favourite song today is 'beautiful' by some dude down in st.albans or something. can't get enough...they sang it at the uk gathering last week. ooo...
been sitting in cafes reading with friends recently. this evening it was in 'big hands' with anna reading 'life of pi' and lovin it more and more with each page.
looks like i might be moving to vancouver in july...still working that one through. reasons for this move....thats for another post.
