dezembro 25, 2003
it's been entirely too long since i've blogged. sorry. but i haven't been in the right blogging mood. extremely important. have had such a fun and exciting christmas! i am officially on the property ladder!! i got a tent for christmas! super cool, n'est pas?! my very own portable home! very pilgrim...
i also managed to come away with new hair, new clothes, great music which i'm sure will set the mood for many memories to come, lotions, potions, U2, and a tshirt that i will quite possibly live in for the rest of eternity....
and to top it all off, god is doing something quite intriguing...feel like he's giving me new strength where i need it most. strength to move forward without fear, strength to dream, and strength to embrace that which was too heavy in the past! he is so worth my everything! (as long as i can give my everything wearing my new tshirt...)
very fun
i also managed to come away with new hair, new clothes, great music which i'm sure will set the mood for many memories to come, lotions, potions, U2, and a tshirt that i will quite possibly live in for the rest of eternity....
and to top it all off, god is doing something quite intriguing...feel like he's giving me new strength where i need it most. strength to move forward without fear, strength to dream, and strength to embrace that which was too heavy in the past! he is so worth my everything! (as long as i can give my everything wearing my new tshirt...)
very fun
dezembro 13, 2003
my week went a little...something...like...this...
-30 weather, snow, freezing fingers, and back to plugging in the cars for night.
little red pills now manipulate my life...or at least until my body decides to store iron properly.
i decided to tap into my creative side this week just to see what happened. and the outcome was surprising. being able to express yourself totally, is freedom.
god's speaking lots about freedom.
does being totally open and honest destroy the need for boxes? or have nothing to do with it?
in my stance against injustice i haven't bought anything from gap...and i have frowned at wallmart extensively. well done oria. one step at a time. i'm learning. oh, and the smell of macdonalds actually DOES make me want to be sick now.
i aquired a bust this week... well, not me, uhhh... those of you who hang out at solomon's will maybe understand that a bit better.
cranberry's are always blushing. very flirtatious fruit.
johnny depp...
tequilla with devin
the pub and fort garry dark...mmm
i think i'm in love with foo fighters main man.
my dreams are teasing me night after night...the other night i won a million dollars and knew where every penny of it was going to go, and the following night was spent over a pint with bono!!!!!! the other dreams are to weird to write down and remember fully. and aren't really that important after an evening with bono, to be fair!
cate comes 2morro!!
-30 weather, snow, freezing fingers, and back to plugging in the cars for night.
little red pills now manipulate my life...or at least until my body decides to store iron properly.
i decided to tap into my creative side this week just to see what happened. and the outcome was surprising. being able to express yourself totally, is freedom.
god's speaking lots about freedom.
does being totally open and honest destroy the need for boxes? or have nothing to do with it?
in my stance against injustice i haven't bought anything from gap...and i have frowned at wallmart extensively. well done oria. one step at a time. i'm learning. oh, and the smell of macdonalds actually DOES make me want to be sick now.
i aquired a bust this week... well, not me, uhhh... those of you who hang out at solomon's will maybe understand that a bit better.
cranberry's are always blushing. very flirtatious fruit.
johnny depp...
tequilla with devin
the pub and fort garry dark...mmm
i think i'm in love with foo fighters main man.
my dreams are teasing me night after night...the other night i won a million dollars and knew where every penny of it was going to go, and the following night was spent over a pint with bono!!!!!! the other dreams are to weird to write down and remember fully. and aren't really that important after an evening with bono, to be fair!
cate comes 2morro!!
dezembro 07, 2003
i was sitting with a friend the other day drinking wine and she was mentioning that when i left 4 years ago for manchester she thought i was insane. i walk around thinking that people here think that i'm throwing my life away cause i'm kinda 'all over the place'. whether this is true or not, isnt the issue. but i realised that i guess i HAVE thrown my life away...or GIVEN it away. and giving it away is a totally different thing. totally orth it.
another wise friend said that purpose is knowing your dreams and taking a risk. it's fullfilling your destiny and calling on your life. it's looking at everything through the big picture which makes the tedious little crappy job, or doing jack-all make sense.
and i take a deep breath.
another wise friend said that purpose is knowing your dreams and taking a risk. it's fullfilling your destiny and calling on your life. it's looking at everything through the big picture which makes the tedious little crappy job, or doing jack-all make sense.
and i take a deep breath.
spent the evening yesterday at my friends 25th birthday who-ha. was cool to be in the country for it. drank wine, ate good food, and chatted to old friends i hadn't seen in many years. crazy.
this trip to canada seems to be one of confirmations, and this particular evening at the party it was confirmed that:
*i am truly relieved that i am still single.
*i definitly see life through a completely different lens than most of the people i meet here. takes up much of my thinking these days.
*i do in fact possess a few irrational? behaviours...for example my intense disslike of fish. why do they have those silver flakes of death in them, and why are they disguised as fun, safe 'sticks'??!! ...sketchy.
*this next year is going to be totally different from the last.
this trip to canada seems to be one of confirmations, and this particular evening at the party it was confirmed that:
*i am truly relieved that i am still single.
*i definitly see life through a completely different lens than most of the people i meet here. takes up much of my thinking these days.
*i do in fact possess a few irrational? behaviours...for example my intense disslike of fish. why do they have those silver flakes of death in them, and why are they disguised as fun, safe 'sticks'??!! ...sketchy.
*this next year is going to be totally different from the last.
libraries are a brilliant invention. you don't have to pay!!
currently reading 'Hey Nostradamus!" by douglas coupland.
currently reading 'Hey Nostradamus!" by douglas coupland.
dezembro 04, 2003
things seem to be under control now in the spider department. it was touch and go for a while there...
my love affair with spanish wine, J5, osbourne viillage, and driving in the mafia mobile continues....
it's snowing outside...has been for hours. lush.
went to decanters, this wine bar/restaurant, last night with an old friend. good times spent catching up on each others lives over the last year.
it's strange tho...finding it hard to connect with people here. like i can't really show them who i really am, what i think, what i've experienced. i tend to just go into listening mode and asking questions cause it's a lot easier than trying to explain work, myself, my life, etc. that seems too hard. and the result is i end up feeling like i'm walking around with these deep secrets...not bad ones, just the opposite...waiting to release them to those who want to receive them. i like mystery, but it also saddens me that i have to be distant with those people in my life.
i think thats why i love driving in the mafia mobile cause i'm able to connect with the one who understands me completely. i don't think i've ever appreciated that as much as i do now!
my love affair with spanish wine, J5, osbourne viillage, and driving in the mafia mobile continues....
it's snowing outside...has been for hours. lush.
went to decanters, this wine bar/restaurant, last night with an old friend. good times spent catching up on each others lives over the last year.
it's strange tho...finding it hard to connect with people here. like i can't really show them who i really am, what i think, what i've experienced. i tend to just go into listening mode and asking questions cause it's a lot easier than trying to explain work, myself, my life, etc. that seems too hard. and the result is i end up feeling like i'm walking around with these deep secrets...not bad ones, just the opposite...waiting to release them to those who want to receive them. i like mystery, but it also saddens me that i have to be distant with those people in my life.
i think thats why i love driving in the mafia mobile cause i'm able to connect with the one who understands me completely. i don't think i've ever appreciated that as much as i do now!
